I told myself I wasn't going to blog while in a way-too-contemplative mood. I logged on and continued telling myself to keep it light and fluffy.

But that wouldn't be real of me. Haven't blogged in quite a bit, so I'd like to keep it real.

I've been thinking about a certain song. Music inspires me; it's my muse. And there's this song by Cheap Trick.

Some lines:

I want you to want me.

I need you to need me.

I'd love you to love me.

I'm beggin' you to beg me.

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'.

Here is what the music inspired me to scribble in cursive (pretty cursive, too) on a random notepad.

*When will my love for you run dry?

*When will I have to take off this sudden, newfound blindfold and see for real that hearts are uncontrollable.

OR

-When will you realize it's me who truly understands you, cares for you and loves you?

-When will it all be enough proof for you?

One way or the other, I feel like my heart's about to embark on a ride. It's one of those scarily exhilarating rollercoasters. Buckle up and enjoy the ride? Or scream bloody murder and get off while things are still safe?